It’s easy to believe the lie,
But not to give the truth a try.
I must convince myself I’m fine;
I claim I’ve yet to cross the line.
The shame is less if I stay blind –
It’s not like I can press rewind.
I’m fading right in front of you;
I melt away like morning dew.
What will it take for you to see,
That there is something wrong with me?
A silent cry for help unheard –
My hope of late has been obscured.
To give into this mind disease –
The price that’s paid for hate appeased.
These lonely nights without sound sleep,
Remind me of the pain I keep.
Am I my Maker’s masterpiece?
These doubts of mine will never cease.
I’m overlooked – a big mistake –
I’m nothing more than my heart-break.
I force a smile for image sake;
It is a mask to hide the ache.
The mirror is my deadly foe;
I can’t obtain the status quo.
The person staring back at me,
Is someone I no longer see.
My vision’s tainted by my fear;
It blurs with every salty tear.
I have become just what I hate.
I wonder though, is it too late?
Is there a way to change my view?
Is there a way to be made new?
Can I be more that my mistakes?
Is there a way to still this ache?
I once was told that God loves me –
I’m still not sure if I agree…
And yet I know there must be more.
Just what on earth am I here for?
I’ve reached the end – I’ve hit the wall –
There’s not much further I can fall.
And so today, I’ll take a chance –
A step of faith – my final stance.
I lay my life down at Your feet;
Renew my hope in You, complete.
What I’m Reading:
The Wonderful Wizard of Oz by L. Frank Baum